For Real! I'm sure all of you momma's can relate to the blog title.
You have a kid & you lose friends. plain and simple... it's sad but true.
I'm young only 22. In high school I had a few best friends. Stayed close with most of them but then life happened...
I got engaged... lost 1 then.
I got married... lost 2-3 then.
I got pregnant....lost 2 more.
this is no joke. the day I told one of my friends I was pregnant was the last time they asked me to hang out. grant it we had all just recently turned 21 & I couldn't go out anymore but seriously it was like bam. done.
Now that Maddux is here some have came around a time or two but nothing like we used to...
I seriously wouldn't change a thing but dang I miss them.
I don't think it's the late nights or the parties or even the gossip but I think I miss the genuine people they all were at one point or another.
I have great friends & 3 of them were there the night I gave birth to Maddux and knowing they were outside in the waiting room meant the world to me and thinking about it makes me cry... it's just sad because a couple of these girls were mentioned above when I talked about losing friends.
They missed my WHOLE pregnancy and then showed up for the most amazing day of my life. I seriously love knowing that they dropped everything and were there for me.
But then I think where have they been now?
1 of the girls has seen Maddux 2 times since he was born.
1 of the girls has seen him 3 times since he was born.
& the last one was there for most of my pregnancy (on and off) & has seen Maddux almost once a week since he was born.
But, I guess the reason I'm writing about this is because it's crazy.
This past week a friend of mine her dad died. We all came together again and spent time together at the veiwing. This was the first time I was together with all of them in a long time. It was awkard and I was uncomfortable-- I mean we were at a viewing so it wasn't the best place to converse but I came home sat on the couch with my husband next to me and Maddux in my lap and broke down.
I just broke. When I could finally catch a breathe and spit out why I was so upset all I could say was. What happened?
I felt like I had no one... other than my best friend sitting next to me. My other half. My husband. & this just devastated me. I mean I know friends don't always last forever but seriously just the previous summer and the time leading up to my pregnancy we were inseperable and now it's all just gone.
I felt like I didn't connect with anyone. They were talking about there late nights out and I was talking about my late night feedings. They would talk about gossip and I was talking about the little boy smiling in my lap. They would talk about there boy troubles and I was talking about my marriage. They were talking about the latest teen mom episode and I was talking about mickey mouse. They were talking about there weekend plans and I was talking about my family.
Just nothing connected & it sucked.
I hated knowing that somewhere in all of our busy lives that we lead that we forgot about one another... or just forgot about me.
As I cried for a while I just kept saying I need some mommy friends.
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I must say God granted me that wish by having my childhood best friend still very close to me have a little boy just a few months older than Maddux which is great since both of us don't have many friends.
I will say that this past weekend I did get together with the girls for a gathering at my friends house it was with her family and out of town guests that were here for the funeral & the hubs watched Maddux and I went and just enjoyed a few drinks and I did catch up on the latest gossip but still... I won't here from most of the girls till the next time I contact them in need for a girls night out.
So... all I can say is if you didn't experience this your lucky & if you did I'm sorry. It sucks!
Here are some pictures of my friends. Some are still around... Some aren't it is what it is I guess. I won't point out who's here. :) I miss all of them that's for sure.
don't mind the numbering I used that collage for something else. :)
