Really Baby #2?

First of all, How do you know when your really "ready" to try for baby #2?

Jayce & I have talked and decided to start trying for this bundle of joy in December...

we have also had talks where we aren't sure if thats really what we want.

Do I really want 2 under 2?

2 in diapers?

2 unable to fully express themselves?

2 babies?

When I think of it like that is scares me... a lot.

But then I think of...

a sweet sweet cuddly newborn

the love I have for Maddux and how I can't wait to feel that all over again

and the big one that gets me...

the future.

the relationship my children would share being so close in age.

&& that my friends...

makes me want to grab the hubby and make our way to the bedroom baby #2.

But seriously, how do you know?

I think we are ready.

I know we can handle it.

I know we will love it.

I know we can afford it.

I also have the concern of how would Maddux take this?

a new baby?

He's my baby & I don't ever want him to think someone else has taken his spot.

I'm just so torn.

but at the sametime each month when flow comes to visit it's such a weird upset feeling I get.

Hubs & I aren't trying to have another baby and we have had only 1 time where another baby really couldve happened but theres always always a small chance so each month it's like...

a small dissapointment when I'm not pregnant.

Any thoughts on Baby #2?

Any advice on what to do?

Baby Number Two?

That's the Big question.

We are asked this at least once or twice a week.

When is number 2 coming??



The best part of getting this question is seeing people's reactions (or hearing it thru emails)

We want to start trying in December.

Yes, this December.

Fall 2012 Baby.

"trying"

that's the key word.

Also, the same word that makes me cringe.

I don't want to have to "try" to have a baby I just want to have a baby.

as most of you know Maddux was just kind of a wow. surprise kind-a-deal.

so... it makes me very nervous to have to try to make a baby because I don't want to have to deal with any kind pressure, stress or dissappoint--if it doesn't happen right away. 

Also, 95% of the people that we tell this to tell us we are crazy & instantly start telling us how "hard" things are going to be. 

Yes, this I know.

Sleep... I'll miss it.

Money... if I wait for money I'll never have another child.

Me time... Thank God for AMAZING grandparents.

3 Bedroom-Small House... We will move--someday... We have room for 2 kids--just not 3 here.

Friends... Ha. I don't see them now 2 kids won't matter.

My Relationship with My Husband... stronger than ever kids won't change that--not for the worse at least.

So... I know we are crazy, I know this will be a challenge...

2 under 2.

Big Deal.

We Got This.

:)

Now to convince my mommy friends to try for some more! :) :)

What do you girls say?