Frustration.

So I totally have been in the dumps the past couple of weeks.  So many things have contributed to this crappy mood.  I feel bad for the people who have had to be around me.  Trust me, I have been no fun & a ticking time bomb.  At times I've been telling myself that it's the hormones but I dont believe myself when I say it.  My last day of work is tomorrow & I totally feel like me being considered "unemployed" with no baby at home is going to make this situation worse.  School is already stressing me out even though we are only into week 2.  I feel like I need a fresh start with life but I also think it's crazy that I can feel like that with the amazing little guy growing inside me.  I mean really how can a woman with a great marriage & a healthy little guy in her belly be sad.  I know everything will be ok but I need that to be right now. I need to not force a smile to spread across my face. I know times like these come and go in everyones life but I feel like this is the most inconvienant time in mine.  This weather isn't helping anything either... I need some sunshine! I'm sorry for going on this small rant.  I hope that something wonderful happens soon. Next Thursday will be wonderful-- Our second 3d ultrasound is then!  Also, I want to update you guys on my pupps situation it is practically gone.  I no longer have any "rash" anywhere on my body.  I now just have some dry skin on my stomach.  The cream that I was given even is cleary my stretch marks up & making them a little less noticable. Those are about the only positive things going on lately.  Even though Jayce is still the amazing super husband that he has always been.  He puts up with the good the bad & the ugly.  He reminds me that everything will be ok & he even puts a smile on my face multiple times a day.  He may add fuel to my fire some days but no matter what I thank God everyday for putting him in my life.  He is the BEST husband a woman could ask for & he will be the BEST dad a child could have.  Can't forget to thank my momma for being my backbone lately.  She is always there to pick me up when I feel like I'm falling.  She not only tells me everything will be ok but she always makes everything ok.  She has always put myself & my brother before anything else & without her we would be lost.  I am so thankful for not only Jayce & my mom but also my amazing family.  Just adding this little tidbit to this post has reminded me that I am lucky, I do live a good life & things could always be worse-- but no matter what everything WILL be ok because I have famILY. 

I found this today & had to include it in my post.  Sorry again for the lack of posts lately--when I get back to "me" I promise to get back to the normal--not so boring post.

I hope everyone is have a great week!

xoxox

Pupps.

Pupps (Pruritic Uticarial Papules and Plaques of Pregnancy)
Lucky me-- I have been diagnosed with this wonderful rash. Let me give you the low down of what I have been through the past week & then I'll let ya know exactly what Pupps is.

Over the past week I have been developing a rash.  At first my stretch marks just itched(all last week) , then i got small bumps on my arm(Friday), then I got small bumps on my stomach(Saturday), then I got the same bumps on my legs & a bright red patch formed just above my belly button(Sunday).  I have never itched so bad in my life.  It was so bad at times I would just want to cry because NOTHING was helping relieve the itch.  I had a ton of little bumps covering my arms, top of my legs & my stomach I knew I needed to go to the doctors & figure out what was causing this rash.  I was concerned because one of the kids that go to the Y was sent home on Thursday last week so I was worried that I had gotten whatever he had. 
So, I don't have a Family physician so I tried to find one yesterday morning but no one was able to get me in and I knew I couldn't go another day itching the way I had for a week.  So, I went to an after hour clinic that one of the local hospitals sponsors.  I went and was seen she said she thought I just had dry skin-- she told me I probably thought she was crazy & she was right.  I thought she was just plain stupid I did NOT have dry skin I was really upset because I just knew this wasn't because of dry skin.  She also said that I needed to make sure I told my OBGYN at my appt (next Monday) & that sometimes rashes can mean more serious things in pregnant women.  Since I knew this doctor was wrong I called my OBGYN this morning and told them about the rash & scheduled a appt I went in and they looked at it and instantly diagnosed me with PUPPS.  This is a rash that some women get while pregnant.  They don't know the cause of and there is nothing that makes it go away.  I was totally excited until she told me that it has to go away on its own. She did write me a prescription for a menthol steroid cream that should help & make me more comfortable.  I'm super excited to have some relief! I'm also super excited to know what is going on.  Most women get PUPPS around 35 weeks--lucky me I got at 29 weeks... PUPPs normally goes away 1-2 weeks after delivery. 
If you happen to look up more info on PUPPs when you seem the pictures of this rash please note that I DO NOT have it as severe as what all the pictures I have seen (Thank the Lord) I only have a bright red patch that is about a 2 inch circle right above my belly button and the rest of my body just has raised bumps all over it. So don't be too alarmed! :)

Hoping the next TEN weeks go super fast or that this rash disappears SOON!

Hope everyone is having a good week!

xoxox

(day 8 is up on the challenge page)